We walked the streets of some imagined imagined city.
You didn’t hold my hand. You said there was a party down the street.
I told you I didn’t want to go. That if we went we wouldn’t leave together.
You looked me in the eye and told me you didn’t need me anymore. You turned and walked away.
My subconscious knows it now.
Then why is it still so hard for me to accept?
I stay up at night
waiting for something that
will never come.
It’s been so long
most nights I forget
What exactly it is that
I am waiting for
But when I do
And I think of you
My heart feels heavy like lead
Because no longer are you beside me
in my bed
and I miss your smile
your sweet sweet voice
that welling in my chest
that gave me the strength
to take on the world,
just you and me.
And after an unexplained and unnecessary break I have found myself returning to my writing. I have a few stories that I have been working on recently, both shotty and loosely assembled, but still stories just the same. It is becoming quite apparent to me that I need to spend more time developing my writing skills. I feel as though I have potential that I can not afford to let go unexplored.
Why is it the miserable so often develop an affinity for written word? Why have so many great writers died by their own hand? Why is it that those individuals that are blessed with the ability of storytelling seem to also be some of the most troubled?
It’s saddens me to see that so many people around me are losing touch with their creative minds. Cell phones are a plague, technology has completely restructured society, fuck the system…all that jazz. But really though, when I see dozens of kids sitting in the library staring at their game of “8 Ball Pool” on their phones rather than doodling or talking to the person next to them, it makes me sick.
Anyway, the rambling could go on for days but I will stop it here. I’m still not too sure how I’m planning on putting these two stories together but this will be the first place they will be available. In the meantime, I’ll be on here fucking around like always.
I decided today that every week I will put out a movie review. I want these reviews to be able to be read and understood by the everyday movie-goer. They are non-academic movie reviews and I intend to keep them that way. Using layman’s terms I will breakdown the film, and do my best to keep the review spoiler free. These reviews will not necessarily be on movies I see in the theaters, but rather the movies I can watch from home (Netflix, HBO Go, Hulu, YouTube, etc.) I constantly try to find new movies to watch, but I am always open to suggestions! Expect the first review sometime this weekend.
As a side note I really wanted to thank those who have followed my blog already! I get more and more excited about the possibilities/opportunities this blog has to offer every day.